Thankfulness

Everyday is a day of gratitude. In times of grief I ask what are you thankful for? What do you think about and say “although my heart is shattered, I’m thankful for…….? When Eliyah passed I heard many people say well at least you have.. at least it’s not.. at least..blah, blah, blah. I hate that phrase at least. It gives such a meaning of  grrrrr. Grief  means feel what you feel and don’t let anyone tell you “at least” he’s with Jesus “at least” you have other kids ” at least”you had such and such years — you have the right to grieve to the most even though the culture says at least –

Healing is a life long journey.  The main thing I learned in holidays is listen to your self.  If you don’t want to be around a lot of people don’t,  if you don’t want to shop don’t,  if you don’t want to cook don’t . If you have others who are depending on you ask someone to help carry that load this year cause emotionally and physically you are just not up to it.

I am thankful for Eliyah. He was such a joy here on earth. He was my first-born and only son. I’m grateful that he was loved and loved in return. I’m thankful that he lived his life with very few if any real complaints if any (I really can’t remember a time he complained) I have been blessed. I’m grateful for the friends that checked on my daily, weekly. those that called me, or came over to just sit with me.  Those that cried with me and let me share my thoughts. I’m grateful for the family that checked on me, and listened. I’m thankful for Grief share. Grief share helped me tremendously to heal.  I’m thankful for various books that encouraged me. I’m thankful for prayers for me, thankful for work that allowed me to escape sometimes when I didn’t want to just sit at home. I’m thankful for my kind neighbors. I’m thankful for my bible study group. I’m thankful for Disneyland. Disneyland has been my families second home and so many magical memories were created there amongst other blessings that occurred there. I’m thankful for other moms sharing their stories of grief with me. I’m thankful for those that spoke truth in love, those that didn’t let me wallow for to long. Those that allowed me to cry unapologetically. I’m thankful for my relationship with Christ. For he is the reason that I can rise out of bed, breathe, walk, live, share my story, he is my reason for it all!! The grief, the pain, life it will all get better, but better will never look like it use to and things will never be how they were . There is no easy way around it no sermon to make it better nothing . Just one step of faith at a time of wrestling and hurting and “sorrow upon sorrow”.  Though there is a place in my heart that longs to see Eliyah, I have family and friends here that I love and cherish. Remembering  those that have pain during this time. Tears are cleansing, you are loved, joy will come, and pain doesn’t always remain. Life is precious and so is time. There is hope, healing, and beautiful new memories that will be created.  Stay in a place of Thankfulness. I’m a witness that it’s possible. If you can please tell me what you are thankful for, I’d love to know 🙂

 

3 thoughts on “Thankfulness”

  1. I’m thankful for life, knowing Jesus, excellent health and a loving family. I’m thankful for life’s trials that taught me how to grow and trust God. I’m thankful for amazing friends and their unconditional love. I’m thankful just because……

    Apryle

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      1. I’m thankful for God, my constant sustainer of everything good within me and our family, my wife for obvious reasons, then, the smaller more meaningful things that grow love so strong that it’s unbeatable, family… family that understands the true meaning of this season, grateful for friend that are patient, one’s that give allowance to your grief and give no judgement to your feelings and stand by your side no matter what. I’m thankful for this post as it allows me to react with my true thought on the matter. THANK YOU!!

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