It’s been a while since I’ve posted on here. I must get back to it. For today I will share a post I shared on my social media. I celebrated at our favorite place today….
Happy 30th Birthday in Heaven Eliyah.
I have so many feelings today. So many……
I wonder.. what you would be doing now.
I wonder .. what would my life look like if you never left
I wonder.. would you be married with kids?
I wonder.. would you be a news anchor like you wanted
I wonder .. how tall you would be. You left at 6’3.
I wonder .. how fun your relationship w/Noah would be
I wonder.. so very much. I could go on and on.
Today’s milestone hits me different. I can’t describe it the way I’d like. But God knows. Those are my secret thoughts that I share with him. The thoughts of a bereaved mother who misses her son. The thoughts of the way grief shows up. The way it slaps. The thoughts of how hard life can still be. But I will digress. I’m choosing joy today. While many celebrate today for other reasons, I celebrate you. My firstborn and only son. The way you loved us was incredible.
The way you loved your sisters was beautiful. Your infectious smile, laugh, and happiness I can’t forget.
I love you beyond measure. I don’t know if Heaven celebrates birthdays, but I know being there in itself is a celebration. Thank you for being my child. And thank you for having the impact in my life you have. I love you forever..
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